True Love is unconditional, right? Think about that statement. Unconditional. I know I’ve used it before. I love you unconditionally! But what does that really mean?
When I asked myself to come up with examples of unconditional love, I always think of people first. I think of my children and giving birth to them. I think of the amazement of holding them in my arms for the first time. When I looked into their eyes I felt unconditional love to the extreme. At that moment I was swept away. I would do anything for them. Anything!
Getting to know Spirit through nature isn’t usually a logical process. In fact, one’s sanity can be rightly questioned. This particular morning had me arguing with myself over a bowl of cereal. It was quite early and as I mumbled to myself reasons to not respond the The Pull, I already knew I was losing the battle.
I had been spending a lot of time in the woods. I could sit still for hours in natural settings. The things I saw, the moments of beauty that wrapped around me like the morning mist, brought moments of Oneness with Spirit. I lived for that. The more time I spent in the woods, the more my intuition began to lead me to things. I would find place to sit just inside the tree line and then wait until I’d feel The Pull, a tug, a tightness in the belly. Then there would be clarity and I’d know where to go. Sometimes it happened within minutes. Sometimes I had to sit for a half hour or more.
People say I’m stubborn and I guess they are right. I’d rather use the word determined. Either way, I had sat myself down on a picnic table only twenty feet from a parking lot. And I was going to sit there in the 100 degree heat until God said something.
It started when I had my first child. I became pregnant totally unexpectedly. I had been training for a marathon, running anywhere between five to twenty miles a day. That kind of training usually diminishes the chances of conceiving. I beat the odds I guess and when my son was born I fell head over heels in love with my little boy. Now, four years later, I was loosing faith. I desperately wanted another child. But no matter what we did, how hard we tried, how much I prayed, I couldn’t get pregnant.
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