So this little, itty bitty bird had a wonderfully profound message for me this morning (apparently the size of the creature has nothing do with the greatness of its communication). I could hear this soft fluttering and could see those terrified, pleading, beady little eyes peering out to me through the furnace grate, and I'm thinking "great, now how do I free you, without scaring you even more--especially with the three dogs and two cats lurking about, trying to figure out what's going on?"
Getting to know Spirit through nature isn’t usually a logical process. In fact, one’s sanity can be rightly questioned. This particular morning had me arguing with myself over a bowl of cereal. It was quite early and as I mumbled to myself reasons to not respond the The Pull, I already knew I was losing the battle.
I had been spending a lot of time in the woods. I could sit still for hours in natural settings. The things I saw, the moments of beauty that wrapped around me like the morning mist, brought moments of Oneness with Spirit. I lived for that. The more time I spent in the woods, the more my intuition began to lead me to things. I would find place to sit just inside the tree line and then wait until I’d feel The Pull, a tug, a tightness in the belly. Then there would be clarity and I’d know where to go. Sometimes it happened within minutes. Sometimes I had to sit for a half hour or more.
For this city girl, the joy of now living on a property with an acre and a half, woods at the back, has been a thrill. I'd been told there were all sorts of wildlife strolling through the yard, and I have enjoyed watching. This past month I have seen four deer, usually together - Dad, Mom and the twins. At first the twins still retained some spots but now they're gone, and I see an increased independence in them, willing to stray further from Mom as they all enjoy the fruits (quite literally) of the crab apple trees. I have not yet earned their complete trust, so although I can watch from a distance, my attempts to get closer drove them back into the woods.
Do you think you are always aware when you are plugged into source at that precise moment? I think I would have said yes before. Now is a different story.
I’m retired as of last May. I have the opportunity to go forth in the world and do whatever I want whenever I want. I’ve been having a ball with that. One thing I signed up for last week brought up a bunch of long forgotten insecurities and led me to struggle with a decision I made. That feels….well, crappy.
The next day however was the opposite. I felt light and flowed with it. Just loving the feeling, I put on my iPod and went out to mow the grass.